what am i suppose to do?

everything i do, always ends up bad for me.. i dont know how, i dont know when, i dont know where. its just happens, its like if im never ment to be happy.. its like my life was planned to be depressing, nothing makes me happy anymore.. the one thing that use to make me happy is also the one thats hurting me.. what do i do? i seriously dont know. do i become happy and lonely? or sad and cosy.. i wonder.. all i know is that  as much as it hurts me.. im willing to take it all for you, and when i see that smile on your face.. what more is there to want? it brings life to my eyes, joy to my world. just sitting here thinking about her puts a smile on my face.. call me obsess all you like, what can i say?.. im in love :) <3